Chastity, my dear slave jeff!! What is the double edged sword, you speak of? Think about it you can watch all the porn your little heart desires! All you need to do is go into chastity, you can watch porn to your heart’s content, but without any gratification. You have the choice to give up porn all together and take any scrap I am willing to feed you.

you have a choice, I am not completely without a heart! The pk II looks like a good choice of chastity. I’m sitting here wondering why you are fretting about making such a choice?

I’ll call him b…

What happened nine months ago, I blocked him from calling my niteflirt. Why? he sent me his cam without calling, talk of disrespectful behaviour! I don’t tolerate any bad behaviour from any of my clients, he’d thought give me a lil christmas gift? What the fuck, this is what I do for a living
make no mistake.

Telling Me today, “he wants to become a slave” It isn’t cheap being my slave you better believe, he will have to pay for the right to cum! I’m sure he was wanking in front of his comp, just “getting off” on the idea of being a slave, but with no effort from his part. “how do i send a tribute, i really want to masturbate for you.” “i’ll send tribute thru a gift cert.” I ingored his ass, I came back to my comp an hour later to see if the tribute came through it never did! Don’t expect my attention if you can’t AFFORD ME, and don’t expect My Attention until the tribute comes through.

Trying to butta Me up with, nobody ever made me came like you did, you were the best, i miss your style….I enjoy My Profession don’t think for a moment, I’m going to allow sorry lil piss ants weedle MY time. Don’t think for a moment I owe you anything, I could give a fuck on how much you spent MY Time is paid for!

Don’t ask, how do I tribute you, what can I do for you, showing your ignorance will only bring out the Bitch in Me..I know how much you lil boys enjoy dealing with a BITCH…I’ll call you on your bullshit!

More examples for the masses!

slxixx (9/11/2005): sure you do
(9/11/2005): I really do
(9/11/2005): i promise to do as I am told
slxixx (9/11/2005): do you realize being a slave is costly?
slxixx (9/11/2005): I do mean expensive
(9/11/2005): so what must i do to prove to you that I am worthy??
(9/11/2005): yes
(9/11/2005): please tell me what I must do??
slxixx (9/11/2005): first you need to tribute
(9/11/2005): well just tell me how when and where…
slxixx (9/11/2005): look at my site which is where you have been…
(9/11/2005 4:06:49 PM): ok…
slxixx (9/11/2005): don’t give me attitude it isn’t appreciated, insolent behaviour, or defiance..you want to be a fucking slave you need to fucking pay attention!
(9/11/2005 4:08:30): yes I am sorry please forgive me
(9/11/2005 4:18:47): i want to pay to masturbate
(9/11/2005 4:28:14): I WILL DO as I am told
slxixx (9/11/2005): send a gift certificate…and don’t be fucking cheap slut!
slxixx (9/11/2005): I should charge your sorry ass in interest for the nine months you have been bugging ME………..
(9/11/2005): yes you are right
(9/11/2005): I;m dumb..where do I send a gift cert from??…please help me
slxixx (9/11/2005): amazon, victoria secret, or neiman marcus
(9/11/2005): where do i send it??
slxixx (9/11/2005): if you would fucking open up your eyes
(9/11/2005): i must be on the wrong place…i see nothing as to where to send it…please help me…
slxixx (9/11/2005): slxixx@yahoo.com *gift cert tribute* on my webpage, near the bottom on the right side
(9/11/2005): thank you so much ..sorry to be such a problem
(9/11/2005): i do not wish to insult you but the best i can do till payday is fifty dollars..will this please you for now….I willl make it up to you

i wanted to share with the group my predicament and maybe get a little advice from other members or even the Goddess herself.

You see, Goddess has prohibited me from viewing porn – especially the foot fetish stuff that i like so much. It’s very painful. i’ve been hooked on the stuff since i was 16. Well, she did say there was one possible exception: if i put myself into a chastity belt for which she held the key. Then i could look at all the porn i wanted too.

Gosh, what’s a slave to do?

Of course, being locked up in a chastity device and essentially giving up any pretense of being a real man has been a long time fantasy. Well maybe obssession.

Here is my favorite device: PK II

Having the piercing would be a big emotional step too. But i am sure there would be complications and difficulties. Is is feasible or pure indulgent fantasy. Not sure.

All i do know is that having Allisssandra control my sexuality is a double edged sword.

Take care all.

slave jeff

In my last post, instead of “power oozes out of her” i should have said “she exudes power”.

Very poor craftsmanship on my part. Sorry.

Thanks to Mistress Jasmine for pointing it out.

Cheers,

slave jeff

Hello Goddess & friends –

Well I got “The Rules” – of course there is the book assignment – Read “Odd Thomas” and write a report. The last time Goddess and i tried this I rebelled due to our differing tastes in fiction. Fortunately I like Koontz much better, but who knows – there might be a painful literary torture in my future. Maybe a romance novel or something. Think i’d prefer cbt – or it might be a close call.

Of course there is the clearing out of porn from the computer. This was another previous difficulty. Have a hard time kicking “foot fetish”.

So anyway – Day 2 of the new regime was an internal struggle, but Goddess was so kind to take me back and help me out i want to do my part.

Take care all.

- jeff