Mistress,

i am sitting here at work watching the “cocksuck” video as commanded. It is soo evil am watching the images blink by and i am filled with such a great desire to suck cock. They look sooo yummy… and i get soo hard and horny watching it.

i love the feeling of being hard and horny which leads to me feeling soo weak. Then i get soo weak and all i want to do is suck all those cocks that are flashing by. i sometimes catch the words as the go by and they make me feel so weak and then fill me with there desire… some of the statements…

I love cocks… Dick is Yummy… i can’t resist cock… cocks control me make me slutty…i need cocks.. i am addicted to cum… typing them out make me soo hard and horny. oh gawd i want Mistress to make me suck cock soo badly.

It is soo hard to control the urge to not IM her constantly while watching this video just to beg her to make me suck cock. i know what will happen after i send this email and then stop watching the video.. the feeling will subside and i will feel soo humiliated that i begged to suck cock.

i will then beg her to not make we watching the video.. i really beg her every day not to have to watch. Only skip begging on the days where i feel i have displeased her and do not want to push my luck. One time she told me that all i had to do was watch 2 minutes and i would be done for the day.

i was soo happy i went to watch for the 2 minutes but i have been watching them soo long now that after 2 minutes i wanted to watch 2 more minutes. That day i ended up watching all day staying late and passing on beers with co-workers just so i could watch 2 more minutes.

It is soo sad when Mistress goes to bed i am left alone soo weak watching the videos while desiring to be commanded sooo badly… i have been watching the vid all day which has made me extremely horny and weak..

Which has lead me in search of porn and i have found myself looking a transvestites. All i want to do is be made to suck their cocks. The bigger the better and they still have to look very feminine. i have found myself in search of the perfect cock with the perfect feminine body. This is so humiliating.