i am at work still upset that i had failed you and immediately prepared to watch the evil video as you had commanded and keep a journal. The video is a hypnotic video when you watch it will make you want to suck cock. When i was first commanded to watch it i did not think it would do anything.

After watching it for a couple hours i was primed mentally to accept the commands and had an uncontrollable desire to suck cock. The desire subsided shortly after watching but for the next few day i noticed me looking at other guys packages.

This really scared me and i beg Mistress Alisssandra to not make me watch the videos. Of course she ordered me to watch them again and i had no choice as she would completely throw me out if i do not please her. She has done that in the past for slaves who have not pleased.

The next time i watched the video it took 30 minutes before it took affect and each time I watched it there after the time has gotten shorter. Now i get immediately rock hard with in seconds of watching the animation and after a minute my mouth starts to feel empty.

after 2 minutes i have an uncontrollable need to suck cock the bigger the better. The pictures start to look so yummy. i am watching the video now and all i want to do is push away the women in the picture and suck the cock that is there.

i am soo hard and horny and i can not stop myself. The worst part is now it is very hard to stop watching the video as it turns me on so much i do not want the fix to end. i keep telling myself 2 more minutes.

i have written Mistress Alisssandra begging her to make me suck cock while deep under the control of the video. Only to feel completely humiliated the next day reading what i wrote to her. It is a vicious cycle that i can not end.

i am sitting here right now with my mouth watering looking at the yummy pictures send Mistress IMs begging her to make me suck cock. i need it soo badly… i have to have cock in my mouth now…

please pleas please Mistress make me suck cock… i have to go focus on my video watching… i must please my Mistress or she will make me start watching the video called “FuckMyAss”. i think you can guess what that will make you want to do…